Love sucks

So today I decided to grow a pair and tell him off and I decided to stop contacting him because I hate the way he is with me now. I did love hearing his voice and stuff but I really hated how he thought it was ok to talk to me about seeing me in a see through bikini but he is not cool with getting back with me. Like what the fuck?? Seriously?? I didn't know how to feel. Should I be happy he misses me like that? Or hurt that thats the only thing he can think about? I just hate him right now and hate how he's an asshole and feels like the world has ended and I don't deserve another chance. Hopefully I don't contact him.. I really need to go through with that... and that is going to be very difficult. ughhhhhh