love or fate!
Well, well, i do not reveal to much of my feelings...be it good or bad...sometimes i do not even reveal to myself...bu these past few days have been different.
There is a guy, of course, whom i have known now for more than five years. We are friends. But i feel much more for him, i admit it. I even told this to one of my friends, well i have done so on Wednesday, thing that i have never done. I really hope that i do not regret this :)
Well, as of now, i keep on meeting him every Saturdays, we practice our badminton training in the university gym as well as some other sports. He does his work out with some guy friends while me, i play just waiting for him to come and join me.
He is very friendly to me which i guess he might be for other people as well. He is very different from, which is perhaps why i like him but i do not feel that he feels the same for me. I do not have the courage to ask him and i know i am so afraid to lose him as a friend if ever he gets to know about my feelings for him.
What was i saying, he is very different and for a 21 year old--he is very much mature, responsible...and of course, he is very successful since young...i mean he is very intelligent and he is a happy being...
To top that he is veg, which makes me more anxious about him accepting me one day--which appears really far away..but let me be positive about that...
I guess that is not only an attraction--i don't know if it is infatuation..
one day i meet him, and the rest of the week, i am thinking only about him.....
i just feel happy for the time being by feeling what i feel for him and expecting nothing in return as if i know that perhaps i do not deserve him...but inside it hurts and i try to overlook that... we only get what we truly deserve and what is in our destiny, i guess...
There is a guy, of course, whom i have known now for more than five years. We are friends. But i feel much more for him, i admit it. I even told this to one of my friends, well i have done so on Wednesday, thing that i have never done. I really hope that i do not regret this :)
Well, as of now, i keep on meeting him every Saturdays, we practice our badminton training in the university gym as well as some other sports. He does his work out with some guy friends while me, i play just waiting for him to come and join me.
He is very friendly to me which i guess he might be for other people as well. He is very different from, which is perhaps why i like him but i do not feel that he feels the same for me. I do not have the courage to ask him and i know i am so afraid to lose him as a friend if ever he gets to know about my feelings for him.
What was i saying, he is very different and for a 21 year old--he is very much mature, responsible...and of course, he is very successful since young...i mean he is very intelligent and he is a happy being...
To top that he is veg, which makes me more anxious about him accepting me one day--which appears really far away..but let me be positive about that...
I guess that is not only an attraction--i don't know if it is infatuation..
one day i meet him, and the rest of the week, i am thinking only about him.....
i just feel happy for the time being by feeling what i feel for him and expecting nothing in return as if i know that perhaps i do not deserve him...but inside it hurts and i try to overlook that... we only get what we truly deserve and what is in our destiny, i guess...
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I wish you the best and I hope it all works out! Pray a lot, but trust me I know how you feel. A year a go I fell in love with my best friend. It\'s hard to know what they think and the future is scary. Take care and Good luck!
oh and what happened? did it work out or...yea, the most difficult thing is that you have absolutely no idea how they think and feel about you...and then there is the fear of losing this one person you truly have feelings for...