love of my life

For the first time in my life i truly beleive i met my soul mate. 2011 met online on a dating site, continued to talk for over a year then finally met up in person. Over that year feel deeply in love with this guy, talked almost daily , with exceptions during his quiet times alone when he needed to recharge. he won my heart over with out ever having met (prior to meeting). Knew that something was different with this guy, not only was i falling for him but the interest in him was great. Didnt know at the time of his diagnosed conditions. Just knew there was something great about him and felt a deep connection to him. I longed for conversations, each day was anxiously awaiting his texts ( chatted the year via texting only),,, couldnt be more wanting of something then that. I needed that closeness with him till we were to finally meet. Felt he was then already a part of my world , a part of my life. Shortly after a year after talking, he finally asked if we could meet, and was i soo ever wanting this more then he ever knew :) Meeting him was just the icing on the cake, couldnt be more happy in person after meeting.. Few weeks after meeting he told me he has aspergers, bipolar, depression and social anxities and severe anxiety issues. It wasnt a big deal to me ,told him no matter what he had i would not leave him nor give up on us as i was already at the point i had fallen for him, nothing mattered and nothing was gonna scare me away. Everything came together, felt like we were meant for each other. Now 6 months after meeting him, and still in contact almost daily,,and to me what seems like we have been dating for 6 months now, he is saying we are friends :(,,, broke my heart hearing that and he still says it now and then   and when  everything for the both of us seems soo perfect and still does i dont understand why he is saying we are friends  i am older than he by 12 yrs he is 31 and i am 42 but to me age doesnt matter and he also said when i asked him if it was my age he said no it didnt matter either but sometimes i wonder could it be that and thats why he says we are friends,,, we have all the right chemistry and get along soo well, spend days together with very few off days in between when he needs to recharge. Evverythings been great although the lack of affection has diminished he did in the beginning kiss me at times , but that was short lived, and although he has not ever hugged me he has said that he doesnt feel comfortable doing with anyone. I do understand that much, but the lack of kisses has me puzzled cause it was there but now gone. Everything else is still very much the same, talk for hrs still, spend days each week together, and all remains like it was except for the lack of affection, and him calling me a friend. I know its definetly more then a friend cause i do share his bed and have for months now and stay at his home for days at a time every week since meeting. I know in my heart there is something there and although he does not want or cannot say its more then friends, i hold out hope that somewhere inside he does feel it is too. This guy has completley changed my life in every way,, before we met i always felt there was a peice of me missing something out there missing but didnt know what,, till i met him:) he completes me in every way:),, he truly is a part of me that i felt i finaly found and had been longing for, that missing peice. I no longer carry around a sad broken empty heart. But rather im feeling soo much alive and happier since meeting him, not a day goes by that he dont bring a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart. I just need to know somehow cause of the aspergers if he can really feel what i feel. He says hes been unable to connect with anyone so far, but yet i feel he can with me maybe he just dont know it. What ever time brings for us, i just hope it can continue to get better and better with each passing day and he can one day acknowledge me as his girlfriend:) ,,, till then im forever greatful for him for being in my life, Thank God for him :) and my faith remains soo strong that he is the choosen one for me and in time( Gods timing )he can see me as more in his eyes rather then just friends.