Love and Hate

I'm so upset as my stbx right now - he wants the kids to live with him cause he wants to spent time with them, he wants to see them all the time not just sometimes - well fuck no.  I'm the one that have been taking care of them, raising them, supporting them, when they cried I'm the one there, when he has broken their hearts I've been there to pick up the pieces and now he would like them to live with him cause he wants to mend the fact that he has emotionally neglected them for the last few years???!!!!! I'm not against him spending time with them, seeing them, sleeping over, those are his children but why does he thinks he has the right to ask me to raise them now?!!! Cause he misses them??!! Well is to fuc.....ing late now, in a marriage you raise children together, divorce parents co-parent and he made that choice, it was his choice to break this family apart so now he has to live with the consequences of his actions.  I know he love his kids and the kids totally adore him but he couldn't find the balance between work and family and as always I'm asked to make his life easier, well that is not my job anymore, he wants to see his kids and spend time with them he is going to have to work at it. 
I dont know, maybe cause I'm upset, I think that was my ah-ha moment, I don't want to see him, I feel like I'm really done with him, maybe after I calm down I will feel different but right now I feel so done, ready to cut all emotional ties and move on.  Can you love and hate somebody at the same time??? It feels like my love for him just dies a little bit everyday, a little bit is killed with some of his words.  Ummm.......Sighs.....what does the future have in store for me.  I'm so sick of this BS and I really wanted it over already.