Lot of nothings

 I don't feel any certain kind of way today Just going to the doctor at the clinic, have had the appt. for about two months. I never expect much when I go there because they only work on one specific problem at a time and give you another appt. to come back in a couple of months. So, if there's anything wrong that may be serious, I may die before I go back. Without a job or insurance, this is all I have. I have been wondering and worrying if they did find something terminally wrong, what could I do about it anyway? Nothing. Wow, that's a lot to look forward to! It's almost a waste of time and a few dollars to even go. I've told them about the low iron, sugar, and high cholesterol issues and they have not even done blood work so, I don't get my hopes up that anything will be accomplished today, either. Not on any meds. except calcium/vitamin d, and over the counter heartburn relief. I will put most of my faith in HIS hands because I am close to nothing at the clinic, as is everyone else. This is just a place people go to get a paycheck, with little to no regard for human life. The lady I have been seeing there is nice and all but, she is so booked up, there's no time to focus on one individual.    The job interview I went to the other day was a "flop". It was listed in the paper as warehouse/inventory. It's an out of state co. and it's only temporary, for three months. There is no warehouse. You go around from building to building on the local military base, verifying numbers on a/c units and such, sometimes having to go on the roof of the buildings...not! They requested way too much personal info. and make you jump through hoops, from the beginning. I am a bit skeptical and wonder if you'd even receive your paychecks. They called me yesterday, told me I was hired but still want me to obtain a copy of my background. Everywhere this was required before, the company has you sign a permission form and they get it so, I am going to decline this offer...it sounds too dangerous and too shady for me. I did get a call yesterday and have another interview this afternoon, with a reputable company that is less than two miles from home. I have previously been there for an interview before and did not get the job but, maybe this time will be different. No offense to anyone but, I have noticed when I go to interviews, the interviewers are usually younger than my daughter and I have witnessed that most of the time a younger person is hired over me. If they only knew my strong work ethics and many of my other outstanding qualities! I'll go in there with a positive attitude and hope for the best outcome. What else can I do? Once again, nothing! I was going to come home after the dr. appt. and cut grass but need to keep my "shower fresh" look for the interview. Wayne is working so much that I may still get that done after the interview. He probably won't be home until 8 or 9 pm anyway. So much time alone! I still miss my Daddy so much, and also my visits with Mr. Lindsay. I find myself counting the missed visits with him...nothing I can do about that, either! Looks like there's nothing I can do about anything. What will be will be. Gonna go eat something, even though I still don't care too much for food, wash some dishes, get dressed and start another day. Hope I get more than nothing accomplished!
I don't know where some of the people have gone that I started talking to when I first came to this site. I never hear from most of them anymore. I guess eventually I'll stop coming here, too. Seems like everyone would keep in touch more often. At least I can talk to myself, my animals, and my journal. Sure do miss that human contact! Guess what? There's yet again, nothing I can do to change that either! My Dad is always with me, and that will be enough! He will never let me down. See/talk to ya soon, journal.