Losted i think

yesterday and today i've felt losted angry tired every emotion there can be.i'm all in a muddle i can't think straight.I missing dad so much just one more cuddle but that would'nt be enough.I have'nt felt him with me for a while and mum say's he's with her 24/7 can't he be with me to.The only dream i've had  was horrible.My friend HeavytHeartedMarge did explain a better way in which to look at it which did help but l just want a nice dream just to see him ok.Why can''t i just have my dad. xx