Lost in my own fears of failure

I'm not a afraid of the act but of failing in results. My fear of disappointment is great, and it gets in the way of happiness. I feel you slipping through my fingers and I don't know how to stop it.

There are so many question, how do I , what do I do, was that ok, was that right, do you want me to do that. Nothing is ever black or white but is always gray. I can't talk to you about these feeling because you just say I'm wrong or I'm confused. I'm not confused I know exactly what I want. And that is you. All of you from your head to your toes. from your flaws to your perfection. I want to be the one to fix your broken hart not to brake it more. Please stay by me though my insecurities and fear. Because I know one thing for sure is that I love you. I have loved you since the day you got in my big gray truck. Since the day your beautiful smile came in to my life. Since that first embrace, since that first shy kiss. Let me keep loving you tell we are old a gray and have little grand baby's running around. My fear will leave but my love will always stay. Thank you journal tell we meet again.