Lost,How do I get through this

I thought the pain of infertility hurts, but this is a whole new level. I physically feel lost and in a complete fog. I don't know how to dig myself out, except that my life feels like I can never be the same. I am sooooo angry. EVERYTHING reminds me that I was pregnant for almost 6 months. My child was here, I will receive his Social Security card soon! I can't take this!!! This doesn't seem fair to have everything taken away and I am suppose to jump back into my life, and I can't. I can't focus on school stuff. With 5 years of infertility, and rollar coaster IVF, then this... I absolutely can't take anymore... I feel so alone, hurt, sad, angry, and depress.