Lost

I have no idea what to do. I'm really confused with my sexuality and what way to turn. I have just got out of a long relationship with a female. I was mad at her for cheating on me. But I myself am not being honest with myself. And also I like dressing in drag and dancing, it's like an escape for me. But I love being with a female, lying down and cuddling. I'm so confused. Sometimes I find myself just crying. I have no friends. So no one to talk to.