Lost

My life has become one giant guessing game. Can I open my pills today? Can I grasp things today? Am I going to take a surprise nap today? 

Everyday is one big experiment. Things that hurt one day don't bother me the next. I never thought my body could betray me so much. 

I try so much to focus on the positives of the day, some days the positive is simply that the day is over.