Lost

Hello I am new here. I was referred to this place by my doctor. I lost my son about 3 weeks ago. He was 3 months old. I had him prematurely at 23 weeks back in July. He was a suvivor and was so strong fighting everyday in NICU to get better but yet he took a turn for the worst and...he passed on. He was my second child to have passed on. Last year in September, I miscarried at 18 weeks. It's so hard to hang on and be strong and move forward with my life. I'm so lost. I don't understand.