Lost

Another fight. He dwells on stuff that can't be fixed right away. Obsessively worries and talks about it for days. Nothing can be fixed at a moments notice. He takes it out on me. He yelled at me because my family doesn't help us with the trailer we rent from them. We pay rent but haven't been able to pay utilities for over 4 years. It's not fair but no way my fault. I don't deserve that. I do everything to make this work. He's not the same since his back injury. I can't say anything. As soon as I do he goes off on me. He won't stop yelling at me. It will go on for hours. He blames everything on me. I don't know what to do. Our son is almost 5 and he sees all this. 

We've been extra stressed since October when I was forced out of my job I had for 12 years. 3 days before my birthday and 2 months before Christmas. It was the first year I didn't get a raise, so I asked for one. It's a small business owned by a couple. He tore me apart. Everything I did was wrong, down to where I parked. He even lied and said I stand around and talk to employees. He lied about so much. I shut down. He wouldn't even let me defend myself. What an ass! How could I stay? I lived paycheck to paycheck. I had to threaten to go to the department of labor because they didn't want to give me paycheck unroll I gave them a letter of resignation. I wasn't doing that. I was forced out. I did everything he said all the time. For my 10 year I got a card from them that was all about how good I was at my job and how much they appreciated me. I didn't think we we're going to celebrate Christmas. She wouldn't sign my paper work for dss! I couldn't buy food for a month. She came to my baby shower, bought my son Christmas gifts, and I had shared my personal life with them. I don't understand what happened. I started a new job a month after I walked. Same pay, got a manager position, and made associate of the quarter all in the first 2 months. 

I'm hurt. I was miserable the last year there. The owner was an ass and didn't talk to anyone. Everything went through the newly hired manager which they paid 9 dollars more than me. That wad crap. What went wrong? I wasted 12 years there for nothing.