Loss of Faith

I have recently renounce the christian faith.   I too had a life filled with abuse, neglect and ridicule.  Since becoming a christian, I was still miserable.  After renouncing christianity, nothing happened.  My life is still the same.   I wasn't struck down by lightening.  Demons didn't suddenly show up.  My life went business as usual. I have been asking questions about the bible. Why does god hate gays so much?If he hates them, then why are they here?Why didn't he want Adam & Eve to gain the knowledge that receive they ate the forbidden fruit?Why did he punish them so harshly?God created Lucifier(devil).  Why was he so angered when Lucifier said he would rise up above god?   Since Lucifier was his creation, what made god think that Lucifier could reach that level?  It sounds like god beat him and the others that agreed with Lucifier down pretty easily.  If it were me, and I heard Lucifier saying that I would of laughed and said, "Oh, Lucifier you're so funny."  knowing that I could easily overpower Lucifier. I have a lot of questions.