losing our son

it has been 1 year since we lost our son at age 33 from brain cancer. this Aug 14th we are having a get together at his grave site and have hot dogs and brownies and just try to have a good day at his grave site. hope he will be there to see us all. in which i know he will be there from heaven watching down on us. our new home is all done and we can move in 2 weeks of august, but i have lots of Dr appointments and packing things up, getting the climate control storage taken out and take to new home. Knowing my mom and dad are already in the new home for that was their home in which i took down the old one, to much damage was done waiting for probate to get said and done. so a new home is built the way my mom would of wanted it and us too. so much to do and not enough time or help.  but we will take 1 day ata a time and have our home in city empty and up for  sale and hope we get the right price. we have a 23 year old still living with us and he does not drive, i am worried about where he will go and how is he going to go to work in winter time, he bought a battiery operated scooter to go to his work, but know the new boss let him go for he was looking for a another part time job and his boss found out so thiis jerk of a boss said give my the keys you are done. my son was assitance manager.  i get depressed at times and i feel like i  am dying or having a heart attack. i have seen my heart Dr just this past monday and all looks good so far, she wants me to have a stress test done also.  sorry i am babbling along. , its been awhile since i was last on the site, been busy. hope you all will have a good day and night.