Losing hope!

I thought this was going to be my month. I'm trying to keep hope. The last 2 days I had what I thought was morning sickness (all day sickness). Today I dont have any sickness at all and Im kind of crampy. I hope that doesnt mean AF is coming. My husband said it could be where I'm kindof constipated. Which is also a sign I could be pregnant I get that every time. My husband says he thinks this is it, and he thinks Im pregnant and its going to be a good one. I really hope hes right. I dont know how much more I can take. Why does this process have to be so stressful. Im sick of waiting. 2 weeks out of every month I have to act as if I'm pregnant because I could be. Then you have to wait and wait and wait some more. Then I have to take the femara and the pregestrone which makes me blotted, moody, pimples everywhere, and also have symptoms as if I was pregnant. Which is making me CRAZY! I just want it to all be over with. Why cant I be normal? Well Im just venting. This crampyness is making me nuts. I really want to be pregnant this month I dont know if I can put myself through this again next month. Well I better good. Hugs and luv, Monica