Lord give me strength
I went to counseling yesterday and broke down. I told my counselor I just wish I could get heartfelt hug from anyone....im so lonely in this relationship. She encouraged me to have the talk with my roomie and tell him that although I love him, Im not in love with him. I plan on having this conversation in the next few days. When he feels me getting distant, he puts inconsistent effort in that is too obvious. I cant live like this anymore. My ex texted me again and sent me a picture and told me that he hoped I could find my motivation to leave...this coming from the same guy who told me i was weak minded for seeing a counselor. Why do I attract these manipulative people and why do I feel such loss when they leave or I choose not to stay? I am being held emotionally hostage here by a person who is too set in their ways to change but crys when I say Im going to leave..its heart wrenching. Why do I have to feel the guilt when he does nothing to change? I need to rip this bandaid off. Work is going good and drama free without the coworker that quit. It seems there is never a balance. I know what i need to do...Lord give me the strength.
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Do the heartfelt hugs need to be sexual? That need for heartfelt hugs is pretty high on my personal list of what's missing in the on-line support groups, buttttttaaaaa. . . Sexual innuendo eliminated by design. *Just* heart.
In my strictly personals, balance is always an ongoing challenge. My favorite meditation on the question of balance is riding a bicycle. Balance changes for every slope, curve, curb, stick and stone. The only thing harder than finding a balance is keeping a balance.
But it's kinda fun, bumps, scrapes and all.
hugs!