Looking Up
I'm feeling pretty good today, despite having a bad nightmare last night. I dreamed that there was some sort of virus or flu that killed off everyone and I was one of the survivors. I was hiding out in an apartment with some friends trying to keep other people out, and people kept on coming and trying to attack us. At first I was in LA, back home, and then suddenly it changed to Miami and it was the aftermath of a hurricane. The dream was really disturbing, and I didn't like it one bit. When I woke up, at first I thought it was real. It wasn't as real as my premonition dreams, but I still felt like there is a hurricane coming to Miami or that my home is going to be broken into. I couldn't fall back asleep because I was so disturbed by the dream.
Today work went okay. I had some problems at the end with a patient who was mentally ill and I couldn't understand her... She kept on talking really low in Spanish and I would respond and she would just stand there and stare at me. She asked me for the phone number to the clinic, and I gave her the paper and pointed at it and she just stood there and asked for it again. I circled it on the paper and gave it back to her. She stood there for a bit and then walked away. At the same time I was trying to talk on the phone to another woman in Spanish. It was hard for me to try and concentrate on two people at the same time with my hearing, and not only that in a language that I'm not totally fluent in. It was annoying, but I got through it.
My mood today has been good. I've been looking forward to tomorrow and my “date with my dad”. I had to hide the bread from Geo so he didn't eat it... I'm saving it so I can have a picnic tomorrow with sandwiches. I just hope he doesn't find it and get mad. He was sleeping this morning when I left, so I didn't want to wake him to tell him not to eat it. That bread is very important to me. I know it's funny, but I need that bread to make the day right. If he wanted bread, he had the chance to get some on Saturday when he had his stepmom's car and I told him to go get bread. He said we had some, so I let it be since he didn't want to go get more. It's not my fault if he's mad at me keeping the bread for myself. I just have this whole thing planned- I'm going to go to the park with my laptop and write out a letter to my dad celebrating his life, and remembering the good times. Then I'm going to go to work, come home and have my normal evening. I will let you all know how it goes. If it looks like it's going to rain, I'm just going to take paper and a pen and write in my paper journal.
I don't know if I should be concerned about how I'm already turning this date with my dad thing into a ritual, but it's something important to me. I want it to go well, and I don't know what I'm going to do if something messes it up. I guess I will just have to roll with the punches and see what tomorrow brings. I do know that if the bread is gone I'm going to be mad, but I'm leaving my chicken out tonight so I have something for backup. I think I'm going to tell Geo about the bread and what it means to me, so that way he doesn't find it by accident and eat it. I don't know if it's the right decision or not, but I think that if I give him my chicken it will make up for it.
Speaking of food.... If I get my snack in, I will be in my calorie range for the third day in a row! I need it, since I'm doing extra cardio and strength training this week as part of a weight-loss challenge I'm doing on Spark People. I know I'm going to be burning more calories, so I'm going to need to eat more. It's going to be hard, since we can't get to the store until Wednesday, and even then I don't know how that's going to go, but I'm going to do my best. I want to get a bunch of canned goods since my dream made me think there's a hurricane coming to Miami, but I don't know if I can carry them all home. I'm probably making a big fuss out of nothing. I guess on Wednesday we will see what I can do.
Stress today was kinda high for a bit when I was working with that mentally ill woman... I know she was mentally ill because she tried to make an appointment with the mental health department, which I don't do. I'm not just calling her that because she was spacey (I'm spacey and mentally ill too.. I don't go around calling people mentally ill for no reason). Mood was good today, and sleep was good. I got about 13 hours, so I'm thinking that's a good number for me right now, 12-13 hours.
Today work went okay. I had some problems at the end with a patient who was mentally ill and I couldn't understand her... She kept on talking really low in Spanish and I would respond and she would just stand there and stare at me. She asked me for the phone number to the clinic, and I gave her the paper and pointed at it and she just stood there and asked for it again. I circled it on the paper and gave it back to her. She stood there for a bit and then walked away. At the same time I was trying to talk on the phone to another woman in Spanish. It was hard for me to try and concentrate on two people at the same time with my hearing, and not only that in a language that I'm not totally fluent in. It was annoying, but I got through it.
My mood today has been good. I've been looking forward to tomorrow and my “date with my dad”. I had to hide the bread from Geo so he didn't eat it... I'm saving it so I can have a picnic tomorrow with sandwiches. I just hope he doesn't find it and get mad. He was sleeping this morning when I left, so I didn't want to wake him to tell him not to eat it. That bread is very important to me. I know it's funny, but I need that bread to make the day right. If he wanted bread, he had the chance to get some on Saturday when he had his stepmom's car and I told him to go get bread. He said we had some, so I let it be since he didn't want to go get more. It's not my fault if he's mad at me keeping the bread for myself. I just have this whole thing planned- I'm going to go to the park with my laptop and write out a letter to my dad celebrating his life, and remembering the good times. Then I'm going to go to work, come home and have my normal evening. I will let you all know how it goes. If it looks like it's going to rain, I'm just going to take paper and a pen and write in my paper journal.
I don't know if I should be concerned about how I'm already turning this date with my dad thing into a ritual, but it's something important to me. I want it to go well, and I don't know what I'm going to do if something messes it up. I guess I will just have to roll with the punches and see what tomorrow brings. I do know that if the bread is gone I'm going to be mad, but I'm leaving my chicken out tonight so I have something for backup. I think I'm going to tell Geo about the bread and what it means to me, so that way he doesn't find it by accident and eat it. I don't know if it's the right decision or not, but I think that if I give him my chicken it will make up for it.
Speaking of food.... If I get my snack in, I will be in my calorie range for the third day in a row! I need it, since I'm doing extra cardio and strength training this week as part of a weight-loss challenge I'm doing on Spark People. I know I'm going to be burning more calories, so I'm going to need to eat more. It's going to be hard, since we can't get to the store until Wednesday, and even then I don't know how that's going to go, but I'm going to do my best. I want to get a bunch of canned goods since my dream made me think there's a hurricane coming to Miami, but I don't know if I can carry them all home. I'm probably making a big fuss out of nothing. I guess on Wednesday we will see what I can do.
Stress today was kinda high for a bit when I was working with that mentally ill woman... I know she was mentally ill because she tried to make an appointment with the mental health department, which I don't do. I'm not just calling her that because she was spacey (I'm spacey and mentally ill too.. I don't go around calling people mentally ill for no reason). Mood was good today, and sleep was good. I got about 13 hours, so I'm thinking that's a good number for me right now, 12-13 hours.
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