Looking up..

Well... My anxiety is back, for a few weeks now..Thanks Marijuana! Or...no..Thanks Wes. I was the moron who started smoking again a few months ago. Honestly tho, i needed a coping method...over the summer..the divorce was very hard on me.  Funny thing is ...I feel better now even with the anxiety back, since i stopped smoking which has been about 2 weeks i've been clear headed (when the anxiety isnt around) and feeling pretty good. I decided it was time to get back into shape aswell, 35 Lbs down! I'm noticing a huge self confidence boost just from that alone...BUT...i gotta buy like a whole new wardrobe now....fucking money!..lol. My ex is no longer on my mind often, she is acctually very rarly on my mind now adays which is fantastic. I think i may be ready to start dating, looking very forward to that..Im not even sure what a healthy relationship feels like...so im curious. FINALLY! Got my band off the ground, super super super excited about that. It's going so well. Anyway i havent written in awhile, mainly because i've been feeling pretty good. =) -Wes