Looking to the positive

I am trying once more to look to the positive, but it is very hard. Because I still have to work out my job situation, but before I do that I have to completely finish my course work. (yeah I still haven't finished it yet.) And try once more to be calm in his presence and say Hi and smile. And thank him if he compliments me on my food or paintings. (It sounds more easier than it really is to me, I am so determined to do it though. I just have to be on my guard and not let him catch me unawares.)And to keep me even more positive is to read the Bible once again.Today I read Matthew chapter 5, and through reading this Chapter, I really liked verses 3-4 "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is in the kingdom of the heavens." and "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." And in the Footnotes say: To be poor in spirit is not only to be humble but also to be emptied in our spirit, in the depth of our being, not holding on to the old things of the old dispensation but unloaded to receive the new things, the things of the kingdom of the heavens.and also on mourning: If we mourn according to God and His economy, we will be comforted by being rewarded with the kingdom of heavens. We will see God's heavenly ruling over the entire negative situation.I just enjoyed that if we are persecuted for being a Christian, we don't have to be down, for all things turn out for good when we have God within us. There is nothing he cannot handle. I really want to trust in him more, because in this world he is the only one you can really depend on. Family and friends can only be by you for only so much. So its good to there is always this one, who is never leaving, this one who will be by me no matter what.