Looking for prayers

In two days I will find out if our quest to TTC is in vain or not...If the lump I found in my breast turns out to be cancer then we are done. Even if it could be removed, there is Chemo or the pill thing and then TTC could result in abdormalities. I keep thinking positive because the doctor did tell me that if it hurts it is a good sign that it is a fibroid or a backed up milk duct from when we were pregnant. If it is a backed up milk duct I think that I would be relieved but at the same time reminded of the loss. I just do not want our journey to concieve to end. But lets face facts. I'm 36 and there is realistically 4 more years before our chances go down to 10% or worse to have a kid. I just feel like it is not fair but then again what is fair? I wish that I could look into a magic ball and see if there are kids in our future or are we spending money senselessly..is that even  word.Well lots to do...i am hoping to ask for prayers from the different sites....Cheers