Looking back...

Looking back at my old journal posts, I mentioned that I thought my husband was an alcoholic.  He was drinking all the time and I didn't care if I did or not...
 
Now, the tables have turned and I am the one drinking all the time.  He hates me.  He doesn't really, but I feeel like it...pretty much because I hate me.  I can't say no to the alcohol.  I miss the old me.  I miss being in control. 
 
That is all. :(