Looking back...

...I just read all my blogs in the past from when I had broke up with my guy at the beginning of the year.  Where is that girl?  What happened to her?  She knew what she wanted, she was lonely but strong and focused....  why did I let myself get sucked back into this horrible relationship, only to get hurt, and be on the end where I am completely depressed and lost?  Is this karma for something?
I really needed to see that... to be reminded of how bad it really was.  I know this is a far, far better place to be in.  I just need the hurt to go away.