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I have a hard time reading some stories that are on here, and seeing them start with mild symptoms then turn into major issues and get surgery!  I am so scared that my colitis will turn into chrohn's and I will have to get surgery. I know worrying doesn't make anything easier on my side, but I can't help but compare when I read the stories.  I like to read the post or stories because it helps me see the light on things but it scares me at the same time.  Does anyone else do the same thing.  Or when you read and think is that going to happen to me?   I have a fear of throwing up, had it my whole life and I still struggle with it.  I freak out if anyone is sick around me or if I think I am going to get sick I flip out.  Well I cry and shake, it's really scary to me.  Slowly I feel I am overcoming it, because lately when I get a bad outbreak I throw up.  I never hardly did before, now it feels like everytime I puke up stomach acid!  I hate it and I get scared that my Colitis is getting worse and surgery is a possibility later or they may diagnose me as Crohn's.  I am so afraid of the Colonoscopy though, I need to go get one done again, but I am scared.  Fear really controls me in a lot of area's, just typing this makes me sit back and think about it!