Longest Day of the YEAR

Here I sit waiting to verify marks for which I submitted at 2pm and now it is almost 6pm. Boy am I tried of waiting and waiting. Those who sent marks in later then me, have verfied and went home. I just want to go home and cry , cry and cry...We got a BFN earlier today and I trying so hard to keep it together here...this waiting is not happening. I guess I figured it was going to be negative but part of me really hoped it wouldn't be.SO I am really sad at the moment and I have been putting up a happy face here.I think that I am going to research going on a trip in August because I really need a break....a break from trying a break from stress, a break from seeing happy families.