Long Weekend
Long, long weekend. I had so many plans - to finish taking down the wall paper in the dining room and paint. Redo my bathroom. Didn't do either - I am strapped for money - having had to pay most or all of the bills owed by Kevin. I blew through $900 in four days covering the minimum due so that I wouldn't lose power or phone. Still no cable or internet - I returned the equipment and paid $100 towards it but I have to pay an additional $400 before they will turn it on. Then I got two more bills... water and garbage overdue. What a shock. I can do this, I have been here before because of my ex-husband (hard to believe it could happen again); but, the entire process is wearing and really pisses me off!
This morning I sent a list of the amounts due to my attorney. He says he will contact him to get him to pay something (if he has anything). Kevin is very sly - no bank account, no credit cards. His family has money - but.... I just felt that I had to attempt. It blows my mind that a person could get away with this kind of thing. To me - I am guess I am naive - it is beyond imagination that a person could live with someone for 6 years, make love to them, take care of them following surgery, be at the births of two grandchildren, buy an engagement ring and stage a whole "event" to give it, have me at their mother's DEATH bed, attend family weddings, and on and on and on and on and do this. I am stunned.
Somehow I must break this record that goes around and around in my head. I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel more shame that I allowed this to happen again.
I will date again. I will be out there again, but I will never be the same again. Sad, because I really liked the person I was. San
This morning I sent a list of the amounts due to my attorney. He says he will contact him to get him to pay something (if he has anything). Kevin is very sly - no bank account, no credit cards. His family has money - but.... I just felt that I had to attempt. It blows my mind that a person could get away with this kind of thing. To me - I am guess I am naive - it is beyond imagination that a person could live with someone for 6 years, make love to them, take care of them following surgery, be at the births of two grandchildren, buy an engagement ring and stage a whole "event" to give it, have me at their mother's DEATH bed, attend family weddings, and on and on and on and on and do this. I am stunned.
Somehow I must break this record that goes around and around in my head. I don't feel sorry for myself, I feel more shame that I allowed this to happen again.
I will date again. I will be out there again, but I will never be the same again. Sad, because I really liked the person I was. San
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Wow its unbelievable how the closest people to you can take advantage and treat you worse than they would a stranger.....hang in there girl! Sounds like you are on the right track to getting your life back. :o)
agree. I know i cannot believe that a person who says they \'love\' you, are your friend, treat you more like a flu virus (let us kill it). You are on the track for standing on your own two feet again. Both of us will again. And much, we just have to let go. I hear you about the shame.....how could I let this happen to me !?!?!?!?!?!?!?
San, if you liked who you were, then why alter it. Learn from your mistakes, but be you first and foremost. I\'m glad that you are feeling a little better, but I understand your frustration. It is amazing what two people can go through, and how it seems it is bringing them closer together, forming a stronger bond, all for it to fall apart in such a fashion. You deserve far better then him, and I pray and hope the next guy that comes into your life treats you like you deserve.
Tes - because I can never be that naive, trusting woman again. I just know that. Right now my heart is filled with hatred and anger towards Kevin. I have now had TWO men, back to back, take advantage of me, my parents and my children. What are the chances?
I had two guys, back to back, that did something similar to me. I took the first one back after he realized his guilt and came back to me, and the second time he left he at least left me with the next month\'s rent. But my most recent ex knew how hurt I was the first time the guy before him walked out. He knew how much it hurt my family. When my current ex walked out, he said to my face that the one before him was right by doing that to me, and then he did it. I feel like you are telling the story of my own current situation.