Long time update
Well I havent been on here in awhile because I have been OK I guess and nothing to really vent about. My ex has been dating her boyfriend for some time now, I've gotten used to it but it still has bothered me. She said that I couldn't see her over spring break because "her mom wouldn't let her" but I am unsure if that's true. But I guess I have been doing OK.
But then Sunday night things got kind of bad for me and I got pretty upset. I won't go into details for her sake but she made some dumb choices. These things that happened, despite me not being her boyfriend, still made me very mad because it seemed like she was so different. I was so upset and angry, and I felt like this was the last straw and I felt like there was no way I could forgive her, plus she had been a total b**** for the last 5 months of being separated, so I decided I was just gonna cut everything off.
I had been planning on sending her a big text saying how I was upset with her and how I didn't want to talk or be her friend anymore, and then after I sent it I was going to give my phone to my roommate that way I wouldn't be tempted to respond. So I went for a walk and started typing my text at 2 AM. After I sent it I was sitting around for a little outside just thinking, when I surprisingly got a response. I was really surprised because it was so early and I wasn't expecting her to see it until the morning when she got up for school.
I was very surprised to see that she was very apologetic, and she was insisting that I not start ignoring her. After her being so mean for 5 months, I was VERY surprised that she was so insisting about us being friends still. At first I was skeptical because she had said stuff like this in the past but never kept her promise.
But she seemed very apologetic and said that what happened was a mistake, and that she was sorry. Surprisingly, she stayed up all the way until she had to go to school at 7 to talk to me. I changed my mind about not wanting to talk to her, and I guess things have been pretty good with us since.
Despite things being good, I feel like I know what is going to happen. Despite what she did (which was pretty bad), her boyfriend didn't break up with her. I was secretly hoping he would, that way things between me and her would have a chance when I go home from school. I'll admit the reason that I still want to be friends is because I have feelings for her. Since she didn't break up with him despite all this, and he didn't break up with her, I am a little upset and confused. I just don't understand why they are still dating... It is clear that he doesn't like her as much as he should, and she doesn't like him as much as she should, yet they still won't break up.
It is very upsetting because although things are good between us now, it just sucks that they are still together. I feel like their relationship has had SO many problems, yet they are still together. It's very frustrating. At the same time, she admitted to still having feelings for me, and has been very nice to me. I am needless to say, confused.
Even though we are on good terms now, I still sort of wish that she didn't text me that morning. If she didn't text me back at 2 AM, I would have given my phone to my roommate, and I would have been done with her. It almost sucks that she did answer me. She makes my days so much more stressful thinking about her and her boyfriend, but for some reason I still like talking to her and I have a weak spot for her.
At this pace I don't think I'll ever figure this relationship out. Despite things going well between me and her, I almost feel worse. Its Catch-22. Either I don't talk to her and feel miserable because I enjoy talking to her, or I talk to her and while she makes me feel better, I won't be able to get her off my mind. It's really stressful...
But then Sunday night things got kind of bad for me and I got pretty upset. I won't go into details for her sake but she made some dumb choices. These things that happened, despite me not being her boyfriend, still made me very mad because it seemed like she was so different. I was so upset and angry, and I felt like this was the last straw and I felt like there was no way I could forgive her, plus she had been a total b**** for the last 5 months of being separated, so I decided I was just gonna cut everything off.
I had been planning on sending her a big text saying how I was upset with her and how I didn't want to talk or be her friend anymore, and then after I sent it I was going to give my phone to my roommate that way I wouldn't be tempted to respond. So I went for a walk and started typing my text at 2 AM. After I sent it I was sitting around for a little outside just thinking, when I surprisingly got a response. I was really surprised because it was so early and I wasn't expecting her to see it until the morning when she got up for school.
I was very surprised to see that she was very apologetic, and she was insisting that I not start ignoring her. After her being so mean for 5 months, I was VERY surprised that she was so insisting about us being friends still. At first I was skeptical because she had said stuff like this in the past but never kept her promise.
But she seemed very apologetic and said that what happened was a mistake, and that she was sorry. Surprisingly, she stayed up all the way until she had to go to school at 7 to talk to me. I changed my mind about not wanting to talk to her, and I guess things have been pretty good with us since.
Despite things being good, I feel like I know what is going to happen. Despite what she did (which was pretty bad), her boyfriend didn't break up with her. I was secretly hoping he would, that way things between me and her would have a chance when I go home from school. I'll admit the reason that I still want to be friends is because I have feelings for her. Since she didn't break up with him despite all this, and he didn't break up with her, I am a little upset and confused. I just don't understand why they are still dating... It is clear that he doesn't like her as much as he should, and she doesn't like him as much as she should, yet they still won't break up.
It is very upsetting because although things are good between us now, it just sucks that they are still together. I feel like their relationship has had SO many problems, yet they are still together. It's very frustrating. At the same time, she admitted to still having feelings for me, and has been very nice to me. I am needless to say, confused.
Even though we are on good terms now, I still sort of wish that she didn't text me that morning. If she didn't text me back at 2 AM, I would have given my phone to my roommate, and I would have been done with her. It almost sucks that she did answer me. She makes my days so much more stressful thinking about her and her boyfriend, but for some reason I still like talking to her and I have a weak spot for her.
At this pace I don't think I'll ever figure this relationship out. Despite things going well between me and her, I almost feel worse. Its Catch-22. Either I don't talk to her and feel miserable because I enjoy talking to her, or I talk to her and while she makes me feel better, I won't be able to get her off my mind. It's really stressful...
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