long time no see
I haven this site for quite some time bc i try not to think about it 2 much. Dont get me wrong i think about Macy everyday but i just could relieve the pain everyday reading other peoples stories it was like going through the whole thing again. As Macys due date gets closer i am struggling more to get out of bed everyday just knowing i would of held her in my arms in weeeks time rips my heart out.
On a positive note ive had my 1st set of tests come back all neg so i dont have dibaetes or thyroid or anything like that that is preventing me from carrying full term. My GP thinks it might be a blood clotting disorder. I have been refered to a specialist who specialises in pregnancy after loss and recurrent miscariage. I have to wait another month to get in2 c him. Meanwhile I have gone back on the pill. I need to know whaat is wrong with me and rule out everything b4 i can try again. I know i cant cope with another loss.
Hope everyone is doing well x
On a positive note ive had my 1st set of tests come back all neg so i dont have dibaetes or thyroid or anything like that that is preventing me from carrying full term. My GP thinks it might be a blood clotting disorder. I have been refered to a specialist who specialises in pregnancy after loss and recurrent miscariage. I have to wait another month to get in2 c him. Meanwhile I have gone back on the pill. I need to know whaat is wrong with me and rule out everything b4 i can try again. I know i cant cope with another loss.
Hope everyone is doing well x
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It\'s nice to hear from you. You are always in my prayers! Hugs...........
I hope you get the answers you need to put your mind at ease to try again. With Macy\'s due date approaching, are you doing anything special? I went and had Emma\'s footprints tattoo on the back of my neck on her due date. Let me know if you need anything, just going through that, the whole weekend was extremely hard. I didnt expect it to feel like when we just lost her, but it did. Pamper yourself and dont push yourself too hard. Hugs to you!
We planned a vacation over our due date. It was really helpful to be in a beautiful place, have a beautiful dinner...and we went on a helicopter ride...something I would have gotten to do if I was pregnant! Yes, it was hard, and I thought about what that day might have been like. But, I was really grateful for my husband, and for our marriage. I was really grateful to be with him, and to know he loves me. Somehow, life was a little different after the due date. My heart was a little lighter. I had the \"before the due date\" feeling and the \"after the due date\" feeling. I think the passing of our Hope Marie\'s due date was very healing. My heart felt a little bit further down the journey of healing. I hope you find the same thing for you. Prayers to you!