long talk

i had a long talk with Mandy today about the feeling i have for Wendy and about me moving to be with Wendy .its hard telling your kids even if they are your step children i have raised Mandy since she was 1 she is now almost 26 i know she is having issues about me being with anyone but her mother but i had to tell her the truth and how bad it is being alone all the time and only getting a visit twice a week for two hours at a time . i loved Cindy very much and i will always love her but she is gone and i just cant live my life alone i am not looking for someone to replace her no one can do that trying to do that would not be fair for Cindy or Wendyeven myself  .Wendy helped me feel good about myself again,showed me i was a good person  and helped me with a lot of problems that happen in my life she is the only real good thing in my life we became very close friends talking on this site then emailing each other finally talking for many hours every day on the phone .the 10 days we spent in las vegas were the best 10 days i have ever had in my life at one time and in four days i will be flying to Australia to be with her for 16 days .i had to talk to Mandy about moving  and why i was going to move there and not Wendy moving here .
     i think Mandy understands how i feel about Wendy and my life and the issues i have in my life .i just want to be with Wendy and share my life with her and i know she feels the same way most people dont know how we widows(ers) really feel .last year before i went to vegas was the worst time i ever lived and when i am with Wendy i feel alive again and i feel loved again it feels good to feel important in someones life this up coming flight will be a long one about 20 hours in the air but it will be worth it however when the time comes to go home it will be harder then when i watched Wendy walk away in L.A. but when we are together we will make the most of our time we have .