Long Time

I haven't been on here for awhile and a lot has happened. I met and fell in love with a wonderful man only to have my heart broken. This has to be the most painful thing i've been through. I'm struggling to make it through the day. I'm giving all my strength to keep myself distracted and coming back to a positive place. A week after the break up, I went to a dark place. I cried until i got a headache, and i slept on my couch for a week. This person was someone I never imagined could hurt me the way they did. I'm trying to be brave, and not expressing how I feel in front of my family and friends. It's getting to a point where i don't like talking about it anymore and I need to vent about this to someone who isn't related to me. I feel rejected and unwanted. I want to cry almost everyday. i keep telling myself it's going to get better, that I'm strong, I've been through a lot and that this will make me stronger. I'm trying to be positive but the hurt is so deep.
I've taken up a new hobby that has proved to be healing for me and that is poetry. Poetry is a great way of expressing myself, writing has always helped me in that area. I'm watching movies that make me laugh and doing everything i can to stay positive and hopeful. It's just been a really rough time and i needed to vent. I know it'll get better in time, i just have to keep telling myself that or else i'm going to fall apart, and i don't want to fall apart.