Long Road

First Entry.  History mostly.  I started in spring of 2012 by asking my PCP about bariatric referral.  I went to a intro meeting and was leaning to the lap-band.  Once on the track I was going to 2 and 3 appointments each week.  Overload!  The only hic-up was finding I had GERD.  This meant no lap-band, and really no sleeve.   So now get an endoscopy, and wait.  I also had a CPAP, and while I did not need a study, the machine was too old and wearing out.  Sleep study scheduled, and new CPAP, YEAH!!  Then as time past, I was falling out of the paperwork at the doctors office.  I get a call, and looks like I need to bug the sleep people to pass on the study.  Last hurdle was the insurance needed a weigh in report.  355 and about 51 Bmi. Now it's almost Oct of 2013.  About 18 months.   It's a long process. 
I was fully ready for a lap-band last year.  Now I know that Lap-bands are reversible, and not as effective.  They can be OK, but a lot of people have revisions, and removal of the bands. I have been so long in the journey I am not sure there is really a next step.  
Last year was hard.  I had lost some weight, and then there were deaths in the family.  Sister, Mother, Birth Mother, Father, Aunt (God Parent).  Some weight has come back.  I am now back on track, and waiting for the Insurance.  
I am now waiting, and thinking, and rethinking.  You know that I don't see myself as overweight, but photos don't lie.  Blood Pressure, Apnea, back and knee pain does not lie.