Long hard Journey

  It has been a long hard journey for my daughter.she was born September 4th,1972,it was the happiest day of my life.She was beautiful and so tiny.She was born with a ventrical heart defect and after that it was always something else.She was a tough cookie though,she didn't let all her Illness's get her down. Believe me she had a long hard life in and out of Hospitals since birth.Her story and mine is a long one so I will make a long story short. I got Divorced when she was 12 years old and raised her by myself ,it was tough but we loved each other and did what we had to to survive.She would get sick and go to the Hospital because of her Rhematoid Arthiritis,just 1 of the illness she had,but we go through it. Than as she got older it got tougher,her Arthiritis took over her tiny little body. Mainstreamed her through School and she Graduated from Girard High School in 1991,I was so proud of her.After she Graduated she got real depressed and wanted to die ,wouldn't eat or get out of bed,starting having multi personalities,talking in different tones.I was terrified for her I worked 12 to 18 Hrs a day she was home all alone.My sister Patty was dying from Cancer and helped as much as she could. I needed to get Help for Penny.One day I was at work and the Fire Department called me(Ithought she burned the house down) They said she called them and wanted to go to the Hospital,she was in a bad way,I said ok I'll meet you there.Needless to say she got help than ( I thought).She was in Group Homes and than her own Apartments,I thought she was doing better being around people.The last place she was at YDC they were Great with her,always clean,happy but she got to where she couldn't walk anymore and in Alot of Pain,we had to do something. So got her 1st hip replaced in August 2007 she did ok but had to have a trache put in until the 2nd surgery(compications) 2nd surgery on October 23rd 2007,Died the next day at 11:05 am,Worst day of my life.I Miss her so much,she was my Only Child.She lived a hard Life I know she is in Peace and no Pain anymore. Life is hard but Death is Final.God Bless

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thank you so very much for sharing your story with us. i am truly honored that you let us into your daughter\'s and your life. what a wonderful daughter. she was such a brave girl and you are such a brave mother. please call on me if you need anything. God bless you. love, donna
RememberKala
RememberKala

Oh my darling friend........ What an incredibly challenging life for both of you. I\'m so sorry for the pain and emotional stress you and Penny suffered. I can\'t begin to imagine your life as I did not have those many complications to deal with. What a loving and selfless mother you always were to Penny. What a trooper Penny always was! Yes, I agree, life can be very hard. There is one thing I know beyond ANY doubts, my Kala is not dead. Her body surely died that horrible night, and that\'s a pain beyond my comprehension that I must bare for the rest of my human experience. But KALA, the real KALA, is alive and well and continuing her journey. I believe this is true for Penny too....I believe it\'s true for all of our children. They\'ve moved on to the next experience, and it\'s a glorious one! Kala visits often and it helps me so much. I pray Penny will visit too and send many wonderful gifts that you will completely recognize as coming from her. We walk a long hard road for sure, but we walk it together my friend, and together we will make it. Love and hugs, Teri.
Robin4
Robin4

Welcome to DS. I\'m sorry for the loss of your courageous and beautiful daughter and the reasons that led you to this site. I know this amazing group of women will be here to lighten your load and help you through the difficult days. I too lost a son. He was a intelligent, handsome, happy and healthy young man. I know the circumstances surrounding their deaths were much different than each others, however, I know that losing a child no matter the circumstance is such a difficult trial for a parent to endure. Thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to talking to you in the future and you will have a wonderful love and support from all of us mothers who share this journey with you. Love to you. Robin
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Katie, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Of course, after all the trials you have had to endure, you now find some comfort albeit bittersweet, that your precious Penny is now healthy and whole...more than she was in her earthly flesh. I believe God gives special people those children who are always going to need them. You have been that special person who helped a child who in the long run helped you strengthen a compassion and love that was already there. I pray you know without doubt that life goes on....that there is a Heaven and God has called our children home. I go through horrible days....I juggle my emotions like a carnival act. It will probably be that way from now on. I have found much comfort from the moms here who are my angels....we lean on each other through the bad and the badder. I have found more peace given through God because I have sought out that peace...praying, praying, and more praying. I pray that you can find some peace in your life. You are a terrific mother and person. Thank you for sharing your life\'s story...it has been selfless and fulfilling as Penny\'s mom.
Love and hugs....Dale....Brandon\'s Mom
biowoman
biowoman

It is obvious how much you love and miss your precious Penny. I know that her presence in your life was such a blessing. It sounds as if she had a kind and gracious heart. And that she lived a life of perserverance. I know you are proud of her. I am glad that you found us and I hope that hearing or reading other moms journals and comments will help you. Love and hugs...Karen
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I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter. It is hard, so hard. I too, was a single parent and raised my two girls alone. You have found a good place here. The people here were such a hugh comfort to me when Robin first died, and still are many days. Love and Hugs, and welcome. Kathie
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Thank you for sharing your story. You are a very courageous and loving mother. I know that your daughter was blessed to have you as her mom. I pray that God will carry you through all that you face in life and lift you up when you can\'t seem to go on. I love you.
Debbie
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It is so extra hard when you lose your only child. It is clear you tried to do everything you could do for Penny. So hard to try to do without a whole lot of support, etc. Thank goodness for Aunt Patty and the helpful agencies to help you carry the load. Penny is free from all suffering now and lives in Love. And you will see her again. Only this time it will be an eternity of pure HAPPINESS and JOY!
Love and Hugs, Donna