Long Day

Just got back from the ER.  I ended up really cutting and needed stitches.  I'm really dissappointed in myself right now and just feel like crying and taking enough meds to guarantee that I sleep through the night...and then some.  At least the student doc doing my stitches was a sweetie and good looking.  The whole ER is completely different from last time I was there over a year ago.  It's been totally renovated and it's nice but confusing. 
 
I had appointment with podiatrist earlier.  They decided to wait on treating until the area with the allergic reaction heals up more.  
 
I went to my insurance company to try and get reimbersed for last session and it was a whole big problem because the form had the wrong persons name on it.  I broke down crying though and the lady made an exception and put it through.  My anxiety went off the wall after that.  I had to take a clonazepam at the mall just to get the things done that I needed to do.  Then I got home and totally freaked out. 
I didn't end up talking to psych there...i wasn't even given the option.  I didn't feel I needed to at the time anyway...but now I'm kinda wishing I asked.  Guess I'll just see how tonight goes...medicate...and see what tomorrow brings.  I can always call my psychiatrist and/or psychologist tomorrow. 
 
I'm gonna go...writing is actually upsetting me more right now.  Just need to take something...put in a movie...and numb my brain.  I don't want to be struggling with this again.