Lonely winter

My husband and I operated an garden center/landscape business for 35 years..........a beautiful, successful family business.   Bill's landscape designs were works of art.  Wherever I go in a thirty mile radius............I see his work.  
He truly brought paradise to life in our own yard and to our customer's yards.   
Our son and I continue to operate the business and our daughter works in the design division.  Winter is difficult because I am mostly alone (no customers and employees around).    I look forward to spring - for the activity.   This business gives me something "to do" for Bill and in his honor and memory.   I am thankful for that.  
But know what?    I just want my Bill.   His arm around me.   His smile.   I don't want to wrap my brain around the fact that he's not coming home.      
I loved being WE.   I hate being only ME.