Lonely still

I wanted so bad to have a happy life but the pain from ocd and lonliness cuts deeper than a knife! I often wonder if the hurt and tears will always be here, and i pray to GOD that he makes this all disappear! I feel so unworthy of love and concern, my heart has been broken and the idea of a meaningful relationship tossed into flames and burned! I feel unattractive old and alone but i guess i will continue for the rest of days to sit by lamp every night hoping that that a friend calls my phone!