Lonely afternoon.....

Im seating at home waiting for my children and the loneliness and emptiness of the house is so overwhelming.  I miss my stbx so much.  I'm not begging or holdig out hope that things will change but I can't deny that I miss him terribly.  I know things we'll get better but right now the mix of emotions and the future is depressing.  Haven't feel like this in a while and I don't like it - need to keep myself together!!!