loneliness
Today I hung out with Bruces sisters.It was a good day.We went to lunch and to thrift shops around my house.After shopping we came back to my house just to gab.We ofcourse started to remenice about Bruce.I was saying how we had a good marriage and had a lot of fun together.I said how I was glad that I married young the first time and had my kids young because when Bruce and I were together we just enjoyed our time together,now he's gone and my kids are all grown up and don't hang out with Mom anymore.Just when I was feeling sorry for myself,my friend Glenn called and we went to dinner with Alex and my daughter Jenn.We had so much fun we were laughing until we were crying.I may not have Bruce anymore but their are still people here who love me and I love them.I miss Bruce so much but I can't have him back so I need to keep on living for the ones that are here.We all need to try to beat this sadness for the ones that are still here.It's not fair to us or them.I believe we have every right to miss the ones we lost and grieve over them.But we need to keep living for our friends and family that are still here and need us,they have a right to have the same happy loving person that our lost loves had.Its only fair.
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You are so right, I just need to get that programmed into my brain. I sooo want to feel like that and I try so hard, it\'s jsut that I do not know if I have the courage or the strength to ever feel like that and it really bothers me. I just get so tired of trying to fight the feeling that the one person who has been in my life and knew me forever is gone, and no one can ever make up for that empty feeling. Going to keep trying, and you are such an inspiration...
Keep putting one foot in front of the other...hugs,ann
You are so right Lori, we must all remember that no matter what, life does go on. Some days it\'s easier than others, but we have to try. Lots of love, Dawn
This is a great positive journal. Yes, you are right - we are still alive and have others that need us, and love us. God bless you honey. I\'m glad to see you had some fun - are out and about and finding yourself through the grief. Take care, love & hugs,