Loneliness

I think one of the worst feelings is having a partner and feeling unbelievablely alone. When you feel like you can't share things,  you feel lost and don't seem to care about anything and mostly yourself. I'm not sure what to do anymore with myself. Lately when I go to sleeep I pray that it would be my time and then I wake in the morning and feel disappointed to be here. All I wánt is some peace,  happiness,  and my days filled with smiles and to only worry when I have to worry about things we can't control. What I would like doesnt matter it never mattered any other time in my life.