Loneliness

Wow. Is there a word for drying up ? Emotional, intimacy , loneliness . Just once inawile why can't he express his love if there truly is any left? I don't believe there is any left? Are we really that different or is he disabled in the love , friendship happiness does he not have needs? Or is my decease killing him slowly. Is it harder to be alone , single than alone when your with someone who doesn't love you anymore. Emotional abuse? Who knows I exist? Am I just a body moving around this world? Empty of a soul worth love, or is he ? So tired ,drAined of all purpose and hope?