lonely

Today, I am feeling lonely. I went out to clubs last night and if I do not meet people or run into friends I leave feelig lonely. Actually I need to be very conscious of the thoughts that I pass through my mind. I run through my head that I am unattractive and old. I know I have and do get my share of attention but I also know that I have a lot more than that to offer.So I guess the thoughts to an extent are the evolution of a gay male.The real problem is not age or attractiveness, it is what do I use to define myself.If I am using looks to define myself then I would think that I have larger problems. I usually am confident about the clubs and what I have to offer, but clubs are not the place to display those things. Anyway, just incoherent ramblings, just had to get it out to figure out the loneliness.