I feel more lonely now that I talk to my neighbor. I'm going to stop trying to talk to her. I have no one to talk to despite having a husband. And my son doesn't talk often either.
 Being agoraphobic sucks. I hold myself back from everything, including running away.my dam diabetic needles cause me to be even more dependent.
 I want to give up life, but I'm too weak minded to. I'm not strong enough to fight my survival instinct. Suffer on I must. Curse it.



im soooo sorry to hear that you\'re having a rough time..You know that you can always talk to me..thats what friends are for...BIG hugs..its soon 1130p here but will be here for a few more mins before heading to bed and will be on here tomorrow..remember you do have people that are here for you and care :)