Living Without Him
From 9th November - 7th January he was gone for 2 months - he was at bootcamp training for the military which he is going to be in till around may 2011....We had limited contact in that time, but you know what I was SO HAPPY. I mean not happy because I couldn't contact him, but I felt like I had a normal life.This is what I mean, in that time he was locked up in a military base, all guys there (it's iran so woman don't do national service) and I felt secure, I didn't have all these anxiety's fucking my mind everyday, I felt at peace, sure I missed him, but I saved so much money on phone calls, I didn't need to obsess it was relieving.I came to the conclusion that all the issues I have the anxiety, the depression, the ocd behaviors, comes from ONLY being in a relationship. If I was single I would be relatively normal lonely maybe but normal, and that is sad to know my relationship is killing me from the inside.
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I dont quite see it that way, its not being in a relationship that is affecting how you feel, what i see is that things in everyday life are affecting your relationship. let me ask you this: if you were on a desert island just you and him, would you be jealous? If you were on the island and one day a woman washed up on shore, how would feel then? do you see what i\'m saying?
knowing my luck a trunk would wash up and inside would be a stack of porn mags!
i understand you completely, its just im misrable im relationships with my issues - which are highlighted throught being in a relationship- i wish sometimes just to be single for the peace away from my torturous mind.
hahahahahah i love miss green, i know how you feel exactly. i guess we all do, kudos miss green for making me see it that way :)