Living Without Him

From 9th November - 7th January he was gone for 2 months - he was at bootcamp training for the military which he is going to be in till around may 2011....We had limited contact in that time, but you know what I was SO HAPPY. I mean not happy because I couldn't contact him, but I felt like I had a normal life.This is what I mean, in that time he was locked up in a military base, all guys there (it's iran so woman don't do national service) and I felt secure, I didn't have all these anxiety's fucking my mind everyday, I felt at peace, sure I missed him, but I saved so much money on phone calls, I didn't need to obsess it was relieving.I came to the conclusion that all the issues I have the anxiety, the depression, the ocd behaviors, comes from ONLY being in a relationship. If I was single I would be relatively normal lonely maybe but normal, and that is sad to know my relationship is killing me from the inside.