Living up to my expectations

So far my life hasnt really been much fun and it has brought me a lot of pain but i have friends and i realized how much i mean to them and how much they nean to me so not only am i transgender but im also depressed and suicidal but that has alll changed never again do i want to cut because i reallized all it does for me is leave ugly scars and make me more ugly than i already am and people have been showing me how much they hate lgbt people anyone who is not ¨normal¨ they say is going to hell and straight up i dont care where i go as long as im happy till the day i die im fine with who i am and dont worry no one in the world is alone beacause god is watching over you im not all that big on god but i just want you guys to feel better and im here so i can help anyone well atleast ill try i wont give up on anyone cause if i do then i also will be giving up on myself and i never want to do that because if i do then i can never forgive myself EVER and that means i also wont forgive myself if i give up on any of you so just know your not alone as long as im here i have your back even if you ask for help and try and push me away im always gonna be with you cause i will never rest until all of you are happy with your lives so please if any of you ever need help im here for you until the day i die