Living A Lie

I'm always been a good actor. It's both a blessing and a curse. Anyway, I try so hard to fit in. To be the person everyone wants me to be. I care too much about pleasing others. I live a lie and pretend to be somebody I'm not. All just to make others happy. The truth is I'm a lesbian which means I'm not normal. At least to my grandparents that is. They want me to be normal and I try so hard to live up to that. I want to be myself but they aren't shy about how they feel about people like me. I know they'd kick me out. My grandpa told me just that the other day. I am tired of hiding. I want nothing more than to come out just to see the looks on their face. I don't want to lose them but I know I already have. They've never cared. Why should it be any different now.