Little Down
As I've said I have been somewhat busy working on this business venture. I was going out to my shop to continue with my organization job that I've also been busy at. Things weren't working out as well as they have been out there and I decided that I just wasn't into it today. I came in and turned on the TV and while sitting here I can feel the depression creeping back in. I have been thinking about my situation with my wife and now worrying somewhat about the decision coming down as to weather I'm going to be accepted in to this program. I can feel the depression and I know I can't give in to it again. I do not want to live like that any more. I figured if I wrote this stuff down it may help. I am going to give myself the rest of the night off even though I shouldn't and try again tomorrow. I must keep on with keeping myself busy, I know that's my cure so I will head back out to my shop tomorrow morning. I have to stop this feeling before it pulls me under like before. I find myself feeling much better when my wife isn't here. Maybr thats a sign I don't know. I suppose everyone has these feelings, but going back to the way I was scares the hell out of me.
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I do understand krm and hope yu can work it out and continue to move, and not neccarily forward either. A slow cruise would be fine. lol Im having a lot of lifestyle changes that are staring me in the face right now, and frankly I care although I am pretty pissed about em right now. Life is seemingly getting to be less and less fun for me because I can\'t continue to do things that I have been doing for years. Im 47, I feel like I\'m at a turning point. Either I do what I need to do to live another 30 yrs or Im dead sooner. Thanks for listening and respect yur logic :)
I think it\'s normal to battle with the fears of the unknown. Remember, you can\'t allow something to control you that isn\'t here yet and hasn\'t happened. I think taking the night off was a great idea...balance is about knowing when to push through and when to rest. You\'re going to do great with all of this...keep telling yourself that! (-:
The most wonderful thing about a new day is that we get to start over and even though we may have to begin again many times what most important is that we do begin again and not let anything hold us back.
Its that we try and make the effort and not so much about the end result.
Like being on a journey, the journey is where we learn and grow and once we get to our destination we feel so much pride in what we have accomlished and what it took to get there because it wasn\'t just handed to us.
I understand the depression and lonliness that comes with it and it is such a long hard road and battle we have to fight and its good that you are wise enough to step away and give yourself some time off with a needed break.
I\'m so proud to call you friend because you have such a dear heart and so much wisdom.