Little Down

As I've said I have been somewhat busy working on this business venture. I was going out to my shop to continue with my organization job that I've also been busy at. Things weren't working out as well as they have been out there and I decided that I just wasn't into it today. I came in and turned on the TV and while sitting here I can feel the depression creeping back in. I have been thinking about my situation with my wife and now worrying somewhat about the decision coming down as to weather I'm going to be accepted in to this program. I can feel the depression and I know I can't give in to it again. I do not want to live like that any more. I figured if I wrote this stuff down it may help. I am going to give myself the rest of the night off even though I shouldn't and try again tomorrow. I must keep on with keeping myself busy, I know that's my cure so I will head back out to my shop tomorrow morning. I have to stop this feeling before it pulls me under like before. I find myself feeling much better when my wife isn't here. Maybr thats a sign I don't know. I suppose everyone has these feelings, but going back to the way I was scares the hell out of me.