Little by Little

Updated both my goals today. Find happiness - I'm getting there little by little.  Don't think about him at all but I do think about the marriage ending.  Still disappointed in him as a father and a man.  Probably always will be.  I pretty sure our divorce will be final soon and then I'll probably wonder how long before he moves in with his little chickie.  But I already know I won't dwell on that.  Just passing thoughts that I guess should be normal.  Two things I still know for certain.....1) It's his loss.  All the way around.  2)  I believe, no matter what I've been through, that God has a better life planned for me.   Get my divorce finalized - I know he and his lawyer have drafted up an agreement.  I know I won't accept it because he already told me what it will entail (without revealing how much).  I would rather take my chances with the judge.  Hopefully the judge will tell him this is how much you must pay this woman per month whether you have a job or not.  But no matter what I'm sure I'll have to take him back to court for real spousal support at sometime down the road.  I think they are waiting until the 60 day deadline, which is March 8th, to present it to me.  Maybe he thinks the judge will rule in his favor.  Anyway, what will be will be.  But I'm thinking it should be finalize soon. I'm in a good place right now emotionally.  I can look forward to the day and enjoy my blessings more and more.  I may not understand my God at this point, but I trust that he is a good God and will reveal His master plan for my life in due time.