Like life is on hold!!
Ok I've decided the wait is driving me mad, I cant stop thinking about it, it feels like I cant plan anything, or decide anything, I don't know how to feel, my brain keeps wondering how things are going to go.
My mind keeps straying to thoughts of how me and my fiancé are going to get through this journey if it goes on for years like so many people on here... I don't know how we will cope but worst of all I really cant see me without children and my brain wont stop going there!
I keep imagining a future with know children and it changes so much, I wanna be with DH don't get me wrong, but I wann ahave children with him. I feel like if I cant do that things would never be the same between us, he would be a great dad, and without me, he could be one! Also if I do have to accept a future without these children I feel like I need to go off and travel the world and do things to fill the gap. this is not something my man would be happy to do, he is not keen to travel.
My mind keeps going over this, I cant see my life as it is, being enough for me without children. Then a little piece of me is terrified this means I shouldn't be having children with a man I might not be with without them????
I feel a bit like Ive been to the job interview and now I am waiting to find out if I got the job......except, I'm waiting for 5 months!! And now i'm not sure of anything anymore!
I am still plodding along, but the load is feeling very heavy right now!
My mind keeps straying to thoughts of how me and my fiancé are going to get through this journey if it goes on for years like so many people on here... I don't know how we will cope but worst of all I really cant see me without children and my brain wont stop going there!
I keep imagining a future with know children and it changes so much, I wanna be with DH don't get me wrong, but I wann ahave children with him. I feel like if I cant do that things would never be the same between us, he would be a great dad, and without me, he could be one! Also if I do have to accept a future without these children I feel like I need to go off and travel the world and do things to fill the gap. this is not something my man would be happy to do, he is not keen to travel.
My mind keeps going over this, I cant see my life as it is, being enough for me without children. Then a little piece of me is terrified this means I shouldn't be having children with a man I might not be with without them????
I feel a bit like Ive been to the job interview and now I am waiting to find out if I got the job......except, I'm waiting for 5 months!! And now i'm not sure of anything anymore!
I am still plodding along, but the load is feeling very heavy right now!
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Hey Nedico, sounds like you are very stressed. Why don\'t you try and take up something to take your mind off things for a while? Have you tried acupuncture? It really helped me to calm my thoughts and I also go to yoga which helps too. I know it sounds like ages but Xmas is almost here and 5 months will fly by x