Lighting the Fire

I have a hard time getting motivated when I don't have a fire under me.  I suppose that's normal.  I also have a hard time when the fire isn't a negative thing though.  I do my best when I'm angry, moving away from something, basically "look what I can do". 
That "something" is usually "someone".  It's hard to get rid of someone.  So it's easier to get that fire lit when it's a real large spark.  I was kind of on fire.  
Oh well, another one bites the dust.  You didn't want me, didn't see the value.  Well fuck that, I'll show you what I can do without you.  I'm not better than you, but I am better than that.  I unburied myself from your shit and now I'm going to climb on top of it.   I've already done a few steps, so time to take on more.  Not that I'm trying to overload myself, but this is something I need to do.  Just like it was last time. 
This also makes me sad.  There's no doubt about it, but it has to be done.  It's sad to cut people off.  However, it's only had to happen when all I was doing was trying to make them see --I guess "see it my way" is the right way to say it but I really mean is see how f***ed in the head they are--and that's just not a friendship.
I mean to say to you, thanks are in order.  You have no idea what I can be, and I'm going to get there better than you could ever imagine.  
To those I said that to before, look what I did.  You never would have thought I could and now you realize I can and I can do it better than you ever would have thought.  I did it.  I could have done it without you, but your fire made it easier.
The fire is back.  Lit and fueled again.  Just like last time, I will not disappoint.