Life, what's so special about it?...

Dear God,
I don't understand what's so damn special about life and being here?  If life is supposed to be a gift, can I get a refund?  This is like being forced to go to a party then standing in the corner since I don't fit in & then watching others have fun...
I'm pleading with you GOD, take this life immediately, now, pronto; I want out!  Call me a taxi - otherwise I'll walk out...Why the hell did you put me here to begin with - is this punishment/retribution from sins past?  Is this some joke!?  If so, I get it; now I command you to get me out of here now!  If there's a mission/purpose for me, please advise immediately so I can fulfill it and be done...
signed
'Clueless, Confused & Lost' (1966-2011?)